Hooray for losing it...definitely just yelled into an empty car while sitting in my driveway for 20 minutes. I feel so effing USELESS sometimes. Even when I give something 130%, all it takes is a tiny little flick from an outside force and POOF! Back again. Man, it would be so easy to just say fuck it and forget it, but nope. I have to be a stubborn jackass about everything. Oh well. I'll sit here and stew in my pot of apathetic loser-ness by myself as usual, thank you very much. I'll get the fuck over it.